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Wed, 07 May 2008 05:03:22 GMT

wow.. dont you just hate it when you are paranoid + impatient? thats the worst kind imo ;_;

i hate waiting for people to ship things out.. i feel very paranoid that they might turn out to be... scammers.. even tho they arent! i know they aren't but you know -.- hearing so much horrific things happening to others makes you very cautious about things as well : | i dont want to lose $850!!! thats almost like 1k worth of money! i think thats the most ive spent on a doll..

oddly enough i dont feel like buying anymore.. its like it's so expensive that it actually scares me now :/ like, somehow, buying them made me feel immune to the amount of money i spend.. it's crazy! S; and i dont think its a nice thing to get "used" to. its hard to earn money and it took me 2 weeks to earn that much :/ i wonder why .. somehow.. it seems so easy to spend it.. -.-''

isnt that weird? i never thought of it much until now.. oh well i guess its a good thing.. ive finally started to realize the value of money slowly..

i hope Lula has been sent today.. im really worried... its just that shes gonna be sent from Alberta and seriously ><' that'll only take 2 days to get here really.. which makes me feel even more anxious cos i know she should be here by thursday.. but yeah -.- it turns out that it might be friday after all.. THAT Is if she actually sent it today.. *SIGHS*

not to mention im also anxious about the lati babies.. the company has been VERY delayed with things.. it sorta drives me insane because im actually waiting ONLY for these dolls to get here.. otherwise i already woulda flown to the Phiippines next week e__e''

lula, please be here soon........... *sighs deeply*

all i can do is pretend im not slighly.. severely anxious at the lack of communication...

flight sched changed

Fri, 02 May 2008 18:34:48 GMT

T__T sigh, i had no choice but to move my flight to the 21st of May now. I would really rather try to wait for all of them ( latis & unoa ) than be without them for 3 more weeks.

If for some damn reason i still cant receive them >:O I at least will have a week or two's worth of wait. e_e'' or whenever my dad decides to go to the Philippines.......... *urg*

urgh....

Fri, 02 May 2008 14:15:14 GMT

how long does it take to get BLANK latis?? -.- im never ordering from them again. seriously. :-/

i just posted a question on the board.. it's ALREADY "beginning" of May. They ignore my question about wanting a more ACCURATE date of shipment.

I guess even with me delaying my flight to may 12... i had a feeling it was too short back then... i dont think i will receive it in time at all :/ really frustrated about this company. im glad i never ordered actual limiteds from them. they cant even handle sending out BASICS with no make-up. -.-''''' Good thing i only want their YELLOWS and nothing else.. i can easily get them off someone else in the future. sigh -.-

sigh

Wed, 23 Apr 2008 21:49:48 GMT

im still sick ;| ...

anyway, im kinda *urgh* at lati at the moment. i know they said they wont ship until early May, ( im going to be pissed if it doesnt arrive before i leave.. ) im still wondering if i should have spent this much on latis.. at first it seemed like a really good idea and such to have a lati horde or w/e but now it doesnt sound too good.. im kinda wanting a guy MSD more & more. I know I could just get them later when I get back and save up but im friggin impatient e_e'''''' damn it. i honestly dont want to sell any of my current babies..

Elfdoll Hana
Lati tan Coco
Ringo Pipos
Lusis Unoa ( definitely not :S lol )

i have 2 sist faceplates coming soon by trade.. im a bit anxious too and im hoping everything will go well. :S this is my first trade w/ dolls so.. yeah =-='' to be honest im never comfortable with trades.. thinking about it makes me feel a bit pukey. :/ ah im so paranoid =-=''''''''''''........

XD lol

Sun, 20 Apr 2008 02:23:29 GMT

knew i was hoping too much for the kitty to arrive yesterday =3= .. anyway, great news about stupid canadian customs is that they at LEAST still "work" on saturdays. i just checked and they've released my kitty. ^^ so she will be arriving this monday.

/emo entry

even tho ive been happy with what dolls i choose.. i mean KNOW for a fact theyre one of the best in terms of molds =3= i mean hello? unoa? even tho so many people have it.. so many people STILL have it on their wishlist.. which is the oddest thing of all...

i just feel a bit unhappy about my collection and im tired of the constant "wanting" of more dolls.. the longer ive been without my ryu.. them more i want SD guys... not guy.. GUYS. GIRLS.

MSD BOYS.. .. etc.. and still yet more girls.. its a bit tiring trying to find out how to get money JUST to spend it on dolls? x_x have i gone too overboard? i think so.. i mean i wouldnt feel bad like this if its not a BAD thing..

ive been so focused on buying & waiting for them to arrive.. i dont even have much clothes for them -3- ;;

and when i found out i was getting like a HUGE income tax return.. i was like OMG .. more money to spend!!! .. after a few seconds i was like.. holy crap.. whats wrong with me? i thought i was trying to save =3= for my friggin business..

it's obvious its somewhat at the back of my mind and i wanna do it out of obligation & cos i dont want to feel like a total loser with NO real direction in my life...

ive just realized how dead ive become these last few years and how im going through life feeling i have an actual direction when i dont.. it's like how i fell out of love for art.. but the will to cling on to it is still there..

thats whats been going on with me.......................... ive lost the drive.. ive lost so many things because of that 1 event that had happened to me in the past that really broke me..

right now im also leaning on too much on the wrong things.. focusing too much on my bf for happiness.. meh... im really disappointed with myself.. i also dont know since when my journal has become like this as well -.- people are gonna be scared if they start reading this kinda crap from me.. im sure of it ;/ bah whatever.. need to let it out somehow instead of keeping this as "JUST ME" type journal again..

*sighs very.. very deeply*

I'm freaking out!!!

Thu, 17 Apr 2008 17:17:24 GMT

my new kitty is coming home soon.. she came all the way from the land of aussieees~ DX! Either they'll release her and send her here as soon as tomorrow.. or they're gonna be crazy again and hold her until Monday or even Tuesday.

*pokes customs to let my kitty come home sooon*! im scared of the amount of custom tax I have to pay >__> I hope there's none.... *grr*

Yeay!!!

Wed, 09 Apr 2008 16:28:17 GMT

Hana is here! And she is GORGEOUS! :) I've got way too many girls.. where are the boys?! *sigh*
My lati lea is seriously going to be very annoyed when he knows that he'll be the only boy in the family..
;_; Or well, im sure he's just lonely and would want brothers.. huu~

GRR CUSTOMS.........

Fri, 04 Apr 2008 05:30:36 GMT

I really hate the customs.. theyre holding up my new victi.. er i mean, girl. :(

*siiigh* i guess i'll only get her on monday.................................... *sighs*

OK~

Thu, 27 Mar 2008 21:39:45 GMT

I've noticed how my acquired funds have quickly been depleting. So I really want to put a stop to it now. I really need the money if I want to make my own business.

No more dolls until I actually start to make money. NO MORE! I've really been fighting to buy a few more after ordering 2 latis. :P At least I think I'm succeeding..

Obsessions are always a constant battle of restraint. :P

I FAIL.

Hey bebes!

Tue, 18 Mar 2008 05:25:28 GMT

I wonder how long lati takes to ship out basic dolls with no make-up.. ive ordered first day of "restocked" latis, although i seriously don't know what they have "restocked" when it takes them more than a month to ship it out anyway.. >___>; i know i ordered 3 at one time ( 2 mine, 1 for my sis XD lols.. i got her to buy a lati hahaha im such a bad influence... :C ) but im hoping that there are some latis REALLY "in-stock" and ready to ship out. that's very unlikely though, but im taking my chances!

ive also finally ordered the long awaited indian wig.. xD;; i also wanted this other wig but they still dont have it restocked. O_o which is mighty weird.

( haha, you can see how impatient i'm being. XD )

so, im gonna be receiving my "face-up" zoukei-mura brushes soon ^__^ from VOLKSUSA, and from ebay.. which will probably take like 2 weeks to get here.. i honestly dont know when that Natalie girl sent it out cos she did not send me any message at all if she has.. o_O;

either way, im excited because im in dire need of real face-up brushes.. i want to improve badly xDD;

i want to "practice" doing face-up but then i dont like working on my own dolls for some reason o_O im happy with the make-up for now and i dont feel like changing any.. i wonder if i should try commissions.. ( im not confident if i'll get any customers tho.. )

*wonders if she should pre-order some dollga wigs and unoa faceplates* XD

Darn Latis!!!

Sun, 16 Mar 2008 06:41:57 GMT

There's gonna be restocking happening this Monday and I STILL cant decide what I'm getting other than a white Lumi..

I'm very much torn with: Miel or Lea

I really want a 2 boys and 2 girls. 2 tan, 2 white.. or 1 white/1 natural.. XD That would be sooo darling <3

So Tan Coco, White Lumi...

and the other 2 i have nooo idea.. at first i would think that i have them "set" and then i find myself lusting over more and more faces.. like a tan momo.. tan lea.. white lea.. white miel.. tan miel.. old skin miel.. old skin lea.. old skin lumi.. really drives me nuts x__X; if i could have my way i would just want all of them XDD which is tooo crazy T__T *SIGHS*

weird thing is.. lea isnt really much of my mold.. but she does look VERY nice with the right make-up........................... i think i should just forget it and go after the mold that i really like.. >_>; but then i want another tan.. but i dont want 2 miels.. quite stupid @__@; which is why im having this dilemma in the first place XO i might just end up looking for a tan lea or a tan momo in that case o_O

also.. wondering which one looks better.. miel in natural or in white?... *sighs*

;3; goodbye my lovely

Thu, 06 Mar 2008 06:20:43 GMT

Ryu is officially up for adoption at DoA. I've only been receiving very low offers though. ^^;;; There has been a great many interest in the guy but not enough to pay as much as I have x__X; Which I deeply regret. I am selling him at the most awful time. Migidoll has announced that they will be making Ryu & Miho again this coming May or June. Which is the reason for the low(ball) offers that I've been receiving.

Still, as much as I don't want to let him go.. I still feel that he has to cos poor guy he's gonna be taken over by girls and is going to be neglected especially because he is too big, who knows though I might still end up keeping him because I am not very happy with the offers at all so far.. *sighs*

Aki has also been neglected, but of course it is only because I am very scared to paint her.. I have no idea why.. It's like I have this look all planned out for her but I'm scared I would mess it up. Ahh, I am so weird eh?

Ciene has been played with a lot and she usually just sits next to me while I'm reading.

Great news ( not for my pocket though of course ) : a special newbie will be coming soon ^^;; ( lol ). Look out for the new person by Wednesday next week! XD

hahah...

Sat, 01 Mar 2008 00:55:35 GMT

Poor Ryu.. for a couple of days now he's been a likely candidate of getting replaced by 3 lati yellows >___>;;;;

*squirms & sighs*

what is it with cute? seriously @_@? it's my ultimate weakness!! XD

Having Lusis near me kind of makes it a bit bearable not having latis yet XD.. * smiles * gak i need a name for her! @_@

Am I crazy for starting to bond with her a bit too much? >_<

T__T WTH

Thu, 28 Feb 2008 23:09:46 GMT

Frick frick FRICK!!! I am seriously lusting over a latidoll yellow LUMI

HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELP!!!!!!!!!! ;3;

( pictures to come soon with my UNOA xD; Just that she doesn't have much of her stuff yet so... -.-; Anyway, her face seriously has turned out a bit too pink :S It seemed light but when I started to spray her the pigments became brighter and it became too hard to control even when i did my best to lighten the color =_= I might have to try again but I don't know what would happen if i recoat it with gloss underneath already.. )

Here she is:

man, im crazzyy.

Thu, 28 Feb 2008 11:24:06 GMT

I received my Unoa today, set to work and now I'm dead tired. XD

I felt like @___________@ the whole time lol.

Her make-up is still nothing close to perfect XD; But it is SOOO much better than the last face-up ive done. ^^ To be honest, I was scared I wouldn't bond with her at all.. but i have T_T.. and I think I immediately am in love with her even with the flaws.

Pics will come soon/when I have time to take some *-*

she is butt nekkid and has no clothes of her own. Im still waiting for her 2 wigs ( which already got shipped o_O when I just ordered it like a few hours ago from RosenLied.com which is crazzzy awesome! ) and Enchanted doll eyes. Sooo looking forward to it! Also need to find nice blonde eyelashes for her ^^; But i'm not too sure if that would look distracting w/ her real eyes >_> but it's not coming anytime soon. ( will probably be here at around March 21st :S or close to that so i dunno what to do yet. XD wont hurt to order those i guess on ebay.. )

On another note, 2 of my other dolls are still either almost done with make-up or 0% done =_= ;; my poor Aki still is face-up less. Ryu still does not have a complete face. XO Which I should finish up SOON. e_e

... and I just noticed I unintentionally somewhat have the same color scheme with my unoa .. somewhat. lol his is way more "dark" tho and she's more.. sultry? XD:; well not really. i dunno how to describe her style but its different. XD

Coming soon, to a theatre near you!

Tue, 26 Feb 2008 19:53:38 GMT

A 'lil random update on my Lusis package *-*!!

Out of Foreign Customs, February 26, 2008, 8:00 am, CANADA
Into Foreign Customs, February 26, 2008, 3:53 am, CANADA
Arrived Abroad, February 26, 2008, 3:53 am, CANADA
International Dispatch, February 22, 2008, 4:44 pm, MIAMI
Processed, February 22, 2008, 8:56 am, MIAMI, FL xxxxx
Acceptance, February 21, 2008, 2:52 pm, JACKSONVILLE, FL xxxxx

*squeals* I should have her by tomorrow, or latest : Thursday! :D

I just remembered I don't have any clothes for her at all! Gak! I guess she will have to share with
Aki. :3 Since Aki still is pretty much "Make-up LESS" atm so she can use em as much as she wants! :D

Except I know the hat might look a bit silly on her. ^^; Would be too big, I think.

EDIT: Since it came out of customs early, I'm really optimistic that it would turn up tomorrow morning!! *fingers crossed* :3

U~NO~A~

Thu, 21 Feb 2008 04:56:06 GMT

That's right! I'm getting a 1.5 Lusis soon. ^____________^!!!!!!!

See that huge grin? lols~ So which means I gotta work hard to sell my stuff! Which meannns, my pullip, MINMI has to go ( along with her extremely cute clothes!! buu~ ). I was honestly thinking of keeping her but with 3 other dolls.. >_> It doesn't sound practical at all.

I just want to be able to design clothes for them soon *-* And I chose doll types that are popular and can model them well. ^^ Mio's clothing really inspires me. : )

I've been studying and have bought references to fashion stuff lately so I'm hoping that will help me crack out more modern, funky, stylish clothing! ^-^ I still have a "Renaissance du Gothic & Lolita" Mag I need to skim through. XD

I am sooooo incorporating embroidery designs into some pieces.. ^^...

On another note...

I'm having doubts with my Ryu though and I'm not too sure how many other dolls have the same body type/measurements with the SD13 long leg bodies >__<; I'm hoping some DoA people will be able to answer in my thread.

Yeaaay Unoa~~~~~ I am going to receive her next week! I can't wait!!! ^O^

ALSO, I got very brave and tried to figure out a way to take my Bluefairy's head out and remove her face-up. XD She is getting new make-up soon.. to be honest i really like the old face up because it's very simple and it would match a lot of clothes.. but quite honestly it does get a bit too drab so I had to do something about it. ^^;

Ryu's face-up is officially still in progress. I got temporary eyes on him and it looked quite... frightening. e_e; he is in dire lack of make-up still.. so I need to add way more around the eyes.. and maybe put more contrast around the cheeks. Lips are fine tho ^^ I like them.. i also spent the most time on that too.

Also.. I understand why people told me to use bad brushes for gloss now... >_______> I almost ruined my brand new brush because of the gloss ;3; ... gahhh

Face-up

Sun, 17 Feb 2008 06:54:31 GMT

Here's a closer pic of Ryu's face-up ^^

I still have a LOT to learn. xD; Also ^^; you can see that I've blushed the cheeks area but very subtle ^^ You can still very much tell the difference from that area in comparison to the forehead color though :D I'm still debating on what to do with the eye area. ^^; Maybe it will become more apparent once I get eyes in for him.

I'm dying to put more gloss on it though XD... I think it's my favorite part in face-ups.. the gloss! haha.

I'm gonna order no. 46 Enchanted Doll eyes for him X3 I think i'll do that tomorrow.

Also.. I'm gonna get a new girl when I sell my tokidoki bags and my pullip and her clothes @u@~

I really want an unoa but she's so darn expensive!! T_T My other choice is a Narae.. I'm still very much torn x_x I wish there was someone who would sell their kit to me close to the original price xD but that's just wishful thinking. e_e;;; I really like both of these molds..

The thing with Unoas is that they look SUPER CUTE with clothes o_O it's like their bodies are so.. model ISH.. if that makes any sense.. but im also wondering if Naraes can look as good with clothes.. Also, one thing that bothers me with naraes is that it's made of french resin T_T beautiful as it is... they said it yellows way more quickly and that really bothers me e_e;; i dont want to spend 500 dollars on something that would turn super yellow after a year ><;;; .................

Photos!!

Fri, 15 Feb 2008 22:48:14 GMT

Teaser:

I have more photos of May and my Migidoll Ryu ( eye-less >>; ) in Flickr. There's a link below :3

More here: ^-^ http://flickr.com/photos/miyue/sets/72157603839314312/

Migidoll Ryu

Fri, 15 Feb 2008 10:06:49 GMT

So i got pretty busy researching about other dolls and I decided to purchase a Migidoll Ryu since I had the opportunity to.. So I got busy for 2 straight days cleaning him up and customizing him.

Unfortunately after all that hardwork, ( MAN, i badly need to practice eyebrows and lip lines.. i dunno where im going wrong or how i got the technique wrong but i cant get it to look very nice and smooth ) and I'm not satisfied with it at all.

I'm dead tired though so I'll actually be taking pictures of him and my May tomorrow and maybe by then I can bond with him. If not then I have no choice but to sell him again.. It's pretty stupid cos I guess it's like you expect too much and you feel a bit let down cos it's not really that heart-tugging after all? Even after all that work? I even had a personality and everything planned out for him.

The weirdest thing is that he pretty much fits the image i was going for.. but.. he doesnt strike me much of anything T_T?? just feel like everyone else's ryu looks 10000000000x better than mine.

but still.. i really need to learn to be thankful that ive done a decent face-up even tho it's my first EVER bjd face-up and also it's my 3rd EVER doll ( including 2 pullips ) that i've tried to put make-up on. So it's really pretty good -_- i guess. I also learned a lot of things along the way.. such as don't resort on using a blade to carve out the stuff you cant reach. XP Be extra patient with alcohol e_e cos eventually it really will come out XP

Sighhh..

Tue, 29 Jan 2008 19:24:46 GMT

So I woke up especially early and could hardly sleep because I know my doll will come today.. but guess what, I missed the postman!! So I have to drop by the post office TOMORROW after 1pm to pick it up. Bah, It's not that bad but still all that hype for nothing. He came in earlier than I ever anticipated. Usually they come pretty late close to noon time, but of all times he had to come at like, 9!! I was already awake at that time but the thing is I never heard anything.. I guess that's what I get for turning the music on? I should never have. I thought it was a bad idea but I was bored to death and DoA is STILL down.

No one went downstairs too even though my brother "supposedly" heard the door bell ring but he wouldn't even try to check it out for me. Ah well.. I honestly can't count on him to do that. sigh.. I'll live. I will damnit! >(

Might as well just stop thinking about it for the rest of the day and turn my excitement mode "on" again tomorrow. Forget that it was supposed to come today.

SO!

Tue, 29 Jan 2008 00:25:28 GMT

I'm STILL waiting for my doll. She's stuck in customs. Damn Canadian customs they take ages to release stuff >_>

Sometimes, I imagine that they get pretty amused whenever they see weird stuff that people buy online :P I can imagine that they probably were like "wth" when they see a human figure inside a box.

Gaah, I honestly can't wait to get her!

I've been trying to hold off from buying more dolls, so far it is sorta working.. Good thing about researching like nuts first is that instead of being attracted to 100 dolls, you could boil it down to 4~5. Which is STILL a lot by some people's standards I'm sure..

DoA is down right now so that's pretty annoying.

Also, last night, I probably should not~ be talking about it but I pretty much lost an auction for a MigiDoll Ryu Head ( White Skin ). :/ What I'm annoyed about is that all biddings are done by PMs.. Worst thing is I practically have no idea which timezone she is exactly, also, other than that you would have NO way to outbid something you can't see, RIGHT?? So I practically lost by a "silent" bid that got in right before the end time.. If it was ebay I would have lost fair and square.. but having no idea you were outbid is pretty much unfair. I was pretty upset. :/

Oh well.. I guess I will have to wait for another release at MigiDoll and hope its another Male head. They said they will release one either Febuary or March. More waiting involved. Wee.

At least it's supposedly only $115 or something .. that's the only good thing about that. :/